So my headline for this article has absolutely nothing to do with the post. Nothing about me is morbid, I caught myself at a weak moment yesterday, but I can’t always run around being fun and happy Bubbles all the time.
The truth is I am a pretty happy and content person, but I become easily upset by small things and it throws me out completely. I will admit I sometimes take things too seriously “who will think what, who will say that…’ But I thoroughly enjoy what I do, I mean I would never choose to do anything else career wise – people are amazing, working and connecting with the different people out there everyday is what I thrive on.
What scares me? Failure & disappointment – but not in a bad way, it’s in a way that I do not allow myself to become complacent. I love a good challenge you know? Walking into a meeting with my peers with a passion and the knowledge about the work that I do everyday that I just want to share it with them excites me.
Why am I scared to ask for a definition of what it really is? Rejection… I am no longer talking about work here, please keep up. Nowadays people have so many options and they are so freely available out there; I have learnt/seen/experienced 1st hand how easily someone can make them self available to more than one person at a time. (removed inappropriate sentence from here).
So I have said how happy I am at work…
My parents, wow – without them, I do not think I would be the person I am today; I think I have the most relaxed/strict/exciting/in love individual people as parents I have ever had the pleasure of being a daughter to. The fact that I went to boarding school… well it strengthened me, but damn being away from them then & now kills me. Every time I get off a plane to visit them I practically hold the tears back. 11 hours worth of driving? Too far. 1 phone call away – I love it. Mom always knows best.
Jo’Burg – can be a lonely City, I remember when I moved here…. I knew no one at the time but my ex and a few of his friends. When we eventually broke up, which I realise now was for the best (lonely or not), I was alone in this beautiful City. I put my head down and focused on my studies and career in my Hotel group; which I will never regret and now eventually that I am finally finding a fantastic balance I am meeting some amazing people, through work, gym, restaurants and various social media platforms. Every now again you come across that rotten apple, its inevitable 😉 I just eat around it!
Buy really having thought about it, Jo’Burg is a really beautiful place to live, the City is stunning, the shops are great, the people are well… different and the opportunities are endless… oh and occasionally you get to spot a hottie or two in the terrible rush hour traffic!
I live in a cute garden cottage with a beautiful ginger cat by the name of Charlie Chaplin and my landlords could not even be bothered by what I do and what time I come home. I do not own a TV nor do I care to own one. I drive a Citi Golf and am convinced I am The Stig at times on the way to work. I drink red wine and I am addicted to sushi. I love squash but haven’t played since high school. I like man but I am old school. I love my work but probably would have been a veterinary surgeon on the sideline if I had taken science at school. Kids scare the shit out of me but I would have a child alone through Artificial Insemination if I needed to do it alone. I am still a person and I still have real feelings and emotions – if you got far enough to read that last sentence. Kudos to you.
Of course no article of mine would be complete without a song and I love this one:)